His Beautiful Life

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

My world has stopped.

March 9, 2010. Officially and most certainly the most horrific day of not only my life, but my families lives as well. Jason, my 21 year old brother, passed away.

Have you ever heard your dad screaming, he is crying so hard? Or your mom on the phone telling her mom that she lost her son. Can you imagine stepping outside of class to return the twelve missed calls from your mother for her to say "Jason's Dead". My little brother broke the window in Jason's truck to find him laying there, blue. too late. My baby brother had to find his big brother like that.

I don't know what to do. There's nothing to do. Our lives can never be the same. I know people lose loved ones every day but this pain is unimaginable until it happens to you. I just never wanted it to happen to me. to us.

I will always love and miss my wonderful, talented, funny, smart, unique brother Jason. I honestly have not a clue how to live without you.

Jason Frederick Self
May 25, 1988- March 9, 2010

i try to say goodbye and i choke
i try to walk away and i stumble
though i try to hide it, its clear
my world crumbles when you are not here

i love you. rest in peace.


  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine life without a sibling...the best I can offer is to take it, please take it, one day at a time. You and your family are in my prayers.

  2. Dear Kelsey,
    My family and I are deeply saddened by the loss of your brother and you and your family are in my prayers. I remember watching you dance when my older daughter, Jennifer, was competing. We lost Jen, almost 8 years ago in a car accident. Though I have suffered the loss of a child, there are no words that are sufficient to express how sorry I am for your loss. Please take care of yourself both physically and emotionally - grief is a deeply personal journey - only you know the right way for you to honor your brother and his memory. Please give my deepest sympathy to your parents when you are able. Carolyn Munholland

  3. Dear Kelsey,
    I cannot express to you how deeply sorry I am about Jason. I cannot say I know how you feel; but I will say that you and your family are in my prayers. Peggy Whaley

  4. thank you all. we really appreciate everything

  5. There are a lot of people lifting you and your family up now. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Joe and Jennifer Pellow

  6. Kelsey, I lost my brother last June and it has been a long and difficult journey. I have met Jason and he was a wonderful young man who was full of light. That could only come from the love of a wonderful family. You can find peace in your memories of happier times with him. Please embrace them. They will give you strength. You will find the most strength in the Lord. I will pray for you and your loving family.

  7. Reba Wilson DanielsMarch 11, 2010 at 7:15 PM

    Hey Kelsey,
    It broke my heart to hear about Jason. I'm so sorry for you, and your families loss. I'll always remember him goofy. Your family is in my families prayers.

  8. Compassionate Friends (for parents who child has died)

    Mary @ 466-8673
    Meetings the 2nd Thurs. of ea. month at 7:30 PM, Mayflower Congregational Church, 3901 NW 63rd

    Nalt. Ofc: 877-969-0010